Over the years, I have made many decisions and often found myself wondering if I made the right one. I would replay the moment in my mind—pondering, worrying, and wracking my brain—hoping that somehow I would find validation that my decision was the correct one. But more often than not, that process never actually brought peace.
One of the more significant decisions I made was to have a tubal ligation during my fourth C-section. At the time, I was 35 years old. I understood that recovery from surgery becomes more difficult with each delivery, and I also knew something very true about myself—I would never intentionally prevent having more children. I had been incredibly blessed to become pregnant with four beautiful boys, and the love for them made the possibility of “one more” always feel tempting.
So in that moment, I made the decision.
Most days I feel completely at peace with it. But if I sit and think about it too long, doubt can quietly creep in. I start asking myself questions that have no real answers. Was that the right decision? Should I have waited? What if?
But I have learned something important about decisions over time.
There have also been moments in life where I knew, without hesitation, that a decision was right. For example, when my husband and I decided to purchase a larger building for our practice. We both felt it deeply—that this was the direction we were supposed to go. We knew we wanted to grow together, serve our community together, and continue building something meaningful side by side. There was peace in that decision from the very beginning.
Looking back, I have realized something about myself: when I know a decision is right, I rarely question it. But when uncertainty lingers, I tend to doubt myself and revisit the decision over and over again.
And that cycle is exhausting.
The truth is, constantly questioning ourselves is not a healthy way to live. Life requires decisions, and none of us have the ability to see every outcome ahead of time. What we can do, however, is trust the process.
Trust that we made the best decision we could with the information, wisdom, and circumstances we had at the time.
Trust that God walks with us through every step, even the uncertain ones.
And trust that peace can be found not in perfect decisions, but in faithful hearts.
If you find yourself wrestling with a decision today, know this: it will be okay. Seek wisdom, pray for clarity, and then allow yourself to move forward with confidence.
Peace does not come from replaying the past—it comes from trusting the path you are on.
